wild card cowboys

Sunday, June 22, 2008. The rain was pouring hard and the wind is blowing hard outside. Me and my cousin Thine woke up past 12 after sleeping at 2 a.m. there’s nothing much to do since we cant get out of the house and the electricity is was also not available. i was bored. I felt like blank. Cant do anything fruitful this day. Then, I remembered what me and my family use to do during typhoons in our province. Yes…. I finally got something to do and be excited about. As the oldest among the housemates, I called for a general assembly in my room and we’ve prepared a comfy mattress for us to sit in. we went through the rain and grab light snack on the convenient store near us. Then the tournament begins.

The four characters are me (Lyra Gabilo Faeldon), my cousins (Jomar Quizagan Gabilo, Kristine Gabilo Adami, and Rodel Gabilo Come). The rule was simple. Who ever lose the game of poker will be the one to sort the cards and got the opportunity to be drawn on the face. It was a tough game. Considering that Tine just learn the game at that very moment. After 4 hours of bursting to laughter and trying to cheat on my playmates. We ended up all looking like worst than Indian cowboys.

The ranking are as follows:

Valedictorian: Kristine May Gabilo Adami: a.k.a. (NOKIA)

Salutatorian: Rodel Josef Gabilo Come: a.k.a. (Honda/Nachos)

First Honorable Mention: Lyra Gabilo Faeldon: a.k.a. (Spiderman)


Honorable Mention: Jomar Quizagan Gabilo: a.k.a. (Chubby kiss)

The next time a typhoon hit your place and you got bored… try doing this… its really fun..

Any comment or suggestions?.. Write me.. tnx!

the book of my life

my cousin kristine once told me that only good girls have diaries and bad bad one's dont have time..

i stand to oppose because sad to say, i have one and i ain't a GOOD girl. infact, i belong to the almost worst one. i dont know since when specificaly ive started but i remember seeing my moms journal when i was just a kid inspired me to do one.

at first, it was just a recycled old notebooks that i used in school where i write. and it was not even consistent. i was just in grade school then, i only write when i hated someone or was happy, and sometimes when there are special occasions in my life that need not to be forgoten...

i wish i could post a picture of my oldest diary but they are all kept in my room at batanes. i remember some lines that i wrote at age 9. "i just made the biggest mortal sin ever in my entire life, i stoned my neighbors chicken to death.". . hahahaha!... that line really made my laugh when i read it after more than 14 years. its really fun to go back and scan the pages back to my past life. i realize many things, like how stupid i use to be. (as if i am not now) hahaha! the friends i met and the places ive been. so with the mixed emotions that i felt.. of course it was not always fun but really... it helps a lot to realize why i should not give up on the trials of life i am facing now.

as the years goes.. it became a part of my everyday life. my highschool journals are among the most colorfull ones while my college are very exciting since it was the time for me to start standing on mu own. i finally got my full independence when i graduated and have a job. my journal became more serius and when you scan through the pages, you can see so much solitude emotions and longging. i have kept the other side of me in my book and i have no intension to share it w/ any one. like i said, i am not a GOOD girl so the cops might come and cuff me if my book will be read by anyone. it is exlusivey for me.

i have posted the image of my 2008 diary so you will have an idea on how it looks. its almost similar to a scrapbook because i have kept some memorable in it, eg. candy wrappers, tickets, reciepts, ect.

i have am not giving you the idea to stole mine, (for God's sake please dont). but i am encouraging you to do so. isnt it good to go back and read all the things that you have done as grow old?.. i like the idea of passing by this crazy world and leaving my writtings and life alive.. or just thinking about sharing what you have done with your kids and grandchildren someday. (just incase you will not have any trouble about forgeting) and it will be in details..

when i read the movie THE NOTEBOOK, i was really inspired.. i can feel my self on their position and thats what i want to end my life with. it is worth the effort.

my friends are amaze why i remember certain days that marked my life and i blame my journal for it. i tell you, at first it was hard... no, it was never easy. because untill now i still have the trouble of consistently updating it.. i dont know if it will last long now that the net is popping up fast and manual writting may extinct.. but i keep my stand still. like i said, my journal became a part of me and it contains so many things that no one has seen of me before or will never be seen.

its really hard because i admit up to now my grammar sucks and my spelling is the worst ever... but writing is my life, my passion, and my depression.

you can start by writting small notes of emotions and keeping it aside, not necessarily everyday but just try... its really fun to remember the past...

as for now, ill let my pen down and started punching the keyboad for this journal. hey.. let me know if you want to exchange ideas w/ me. k...?

get inspired....

life is never fair!

i cry for the times i though i had you.
i cry for the memories i have left behind.
not all scars shows and not all wounds HEAL.

cut my life into pieces, this is my last resort.

loosing you is like loosing my heart.

i just live and breath and try not to DIE AGAIN.
sayang.... i thought it was for real... now i know that fairytales dont exist... who made that word that i stupidly believed in...?.. just my imagination...

too much is enough

yeah.... its really too much... i have been wondering why life is so unfair but i haven't had an answer yet to this day... we all are educated with whats right and wrong but why do we keep on doing the later?...

ok... break it up.. im not getting any sense here... to cut it short.... IM MAD... IM FED UP, IM ANGRY and I HAD ENOUGH... the scenario started a long time ago. and to my prolongged patience.. i had to courage to keep my mouth and anger in tuck. but this time... hell im going to sout it all... ok,ok,,, im sory.. lets start,, my problem is regarding my family and the place i stay. my (aunt1) and I have been living together since i graduated and have a job few years ago. there was no problem yet then. just last year my cousin (daughter of my (aunt2)) and my (aunt1)s daughter arived and suit into the picture.. it all goes well until my aunt2 had a terible problem with her husbad. although only there daughter live with us. she has gone crazy... (i think).. she use to be my favorite aunt but now the world has turned upside down.. she has been harashing me through text and saying me bad words such as killing me and been forcing me to pay her daughters share of rent in our apartment as if ive done a mortal sin to them.. i dont think so... i had kept my mouth shut for so long that at this moment, i no longger wish to just swallow all what she says and turn my back on it.

the thing that pissest me off is that it would be more acceptable is Ive done something worth all her efforts but i got none. considering that her blood is running through my veins, that she is my aunt whatever may happen and that she is a PRINCIPAL (for real). she should act like one in all cost it may. I dont want to inflick a family issue that will destroy my own but i also know where my cut is... and forcing me to pay for her daughters rent and harassing me through text that leaves me sleepless nights wont be fair...

i want to see a change... i havnt had done anything YET.. but i want an answer to my prob.. I had been thinking about moving out. but i dont have anyone to turn on to. i am alone and my only companion is my self. i am afraid if i can make it or not. im too fragile to make a step thinking i would be crushed in the hostile world. do you have any suggestion or advice on what should i do?... will i move out or not? are there any options?... where will i start? lastly, have i made the right decision about writing this blog?.... so sorry but like i've said.. i am all of what i have. i do not have many friends. i dont socialize and my only family are the one who are poisoning me..

pls help me...

beach house - mahatao, batanes

this would be my first entry and i whould like to promote our small and simple beach house at Disvayangan Bay, Mahatao Batanes.

My family built this house few years ago for our personal use but when tourism blooms in our province, we decided to share it whith everybody..

its just a simple cottage with complete facilities.. nice and clean utensils. and an amazing view by the bay.. its very accesible for it is located along the national road. it is good for family/barkada picnic or even if you just want to escape from the noise of the metro.

We treat everyone like a family and we personaly attend to the needs of our visitors and want them to feel at home.

if you want to visit us. please txt or call edna at 09178988962. or post a comment here. ill be glad to here from you.