abnormal

right at the moment... i no longer feel alive.. i know its been weired to talk about death for my first 3 blogs this year but i realize a lot as time goes on... as a kid i got sick and tiered of being plain and nothing but a wallpaper on the crowd... I'm nobody... nothing and i almost don't exist... i don't want to be like that again... i always think of what i might have been if Ive been in different environment or atmosphere... aaarrgggghhhh.... i feel numb... i want to express my anger, my pain, my confusion, my failure, and everything but i guess i have to endure and deal with it myself.

nescafe - batanes

I've been struck by this tv ad since the first day i saw it. ofcourse thats because im a true full blooded ivatan. i never imagine that there will come a day when i can watch my fellow ivatan doing a commercial on national television.

there had been the time when i remember watching "hihintayin kita sa langit" which was the first movie i remember being shoot there... and lately as the century turns quickly and inovation and technology crawls up... there had been the movie "batanes" and the tv ad of dawn zulueta for "PH care". the only difference this time is we got to hear our language used in the entire ad. that made me proud to be one.

Felt like going home... "isang libo't isa man bagyo ang dumating... di ka matutumba... malalim ang kapit mo dito"

sabi nga... bumalik sa pinanggalingan...

huhuhu!... ku makey a mamatan...

farewell party

When the last breath of life is gone from my bodyAnd my lips are as cold as the seaWhen my friends gather around for my farewell partyThere will be flowers from those who cry when I'm goneDon't be mad at me for wanting to keep you till my life on this old world is throughYou'll be free at the end of my farewell party but I'll go away loving you

feelings and questions

i know days will come and go, maybe i'll grow old, but i will die for now. is it worth to be sad if it's harder to be glad to be alive? the trouble i have caused, i wonder where i belong, is it here?... as i look around this room, seeing worried eyes that know, its time that we cannot buy. was this worth the time to write?

in the memory of Lyra Faeldon

have you ever think about how you will look like on your final day?

its weired but i had ask that my self.. well, of course i dunno, thats why when i stumble on my moms "barong", my instinct tells me right there and then to put in on and try... well, twas a diff. me... atlast... i got a glimps on my final look.

people told me I'm crazy, but am I wrong on being curious? atleast ill go on in this world having an idea on how ill rot in my coffin. well, death is a must for everybody so, why fear for it.. ?

I was amaze by how others react with my pic. some scream, some fear, some worry, some look me like im already rotting... most of all, some cant believe im still breathing....

one thing is for sure... I'm contented that i know im cute on my final rest....

bwahahahahah!

city of stars

Amusement part had been an almost impossible dream for me. I remembered planning this trip for the entire year and got postponed for several times. Yeah, I did got frustrated and bag it all up at the back of my mind. Just when I was about to put it on my failure list, I decided to give it one more last try. Well I’m surprised it materialized.

I thought I will be going alone, but I was lucky enough to pull out my friend Karey form her other plans for the weekend. We decided to push it through. We were like two lost kitties not knowing where star city is located and the only information given us was from another friend who visited a few weeks ago.

All right, we took off early, too excited to do the child-like experience. We rode a taxi not to show everyone that we can afford but we simply do not know the location only to get disappointed that we were 2 hours early. Gosh! It was such a hassle to not know what to do.

We then decided to go back to MOA and kill-time. We float. Just hang around walking and grab few to eat.

Finally, the time passed by and we were able to go back to our main plan. Damn! The ticket line was exploding with crowded people. Good-thing we bump into another friend who settle the ticket for us.

Karey and I first give it a run to the shopping. It’s a weird thing to do first after our long plan trip. Then the rides…. I can’t describe how nerve wrecking it was. I almost lost my internal organs with fear and ear-breaking screams.

My leg couldn’t almost carry me home when its time to go. Anyhow, I got my answer to my curiosity and an experience of a lifetime! It was worth the risk.

Mahatao NHS - Batch '01

I've never been the class favorite and I admit I'm guilty for the past few years that I've ignored my lifetime friends. But after a while, I made up my mind and started to look back to what made of who I am today and decided to pay them what I owe.

It was a really nice, no... not just nice but overwhelming experience to be with them again. We exchange stories and giggled like kids again. I really like what I felt at that moment and wanting more to be back again. I already missed a lot and this time, I'm not going to let another pass me again.

It's only a portion of my high school batch that I met but I’m truly looking forward for the rest to surface in my peripheral once more.

I miss you guys... I miss all of you. The good and bad times we shared together at that sea-side school up in the north will always be one of the best memories stored up in my system until I go obsolete.

Until the next horse kick, and the angel flies. Lets drink to that!... hehehe!