basta... i feel sick.. i feel bad... i dont want to go home.. gusto ko magbabad sa trabaho until mawalan ako ng pakiramdam. ayoko umuwi at mag isa nnman.. ayoko mag isip kung pano mo ko ginago. ayoko! Ayoko!! AYOKO!!!!.... sayang anf time ko para isipin ka... gosh.. gusto ko naging manhid... bwsit!... inis ako.. grabeh... im so ENGOT... panu mo ko nagagawang tanga?... i know what you're doing pro i choose to be blind on my own way.... AGGGGHHHHHH!!... so pakshet!!... panu?... panu nga? panu kita tatanggalin sa gunita ko... ayo na kita,,, sawa na ko sa kaka intindi ko sau.. tao din ako.. i have my own life.. i want to live my own.. d nalang palaging nag aadjust para sau. tangna nmn... ang sama talaga ng pakiramdam ko... i want to let it out.. sabi mo di tau bagay kasi masyado matayog ang gusto ko marating at di ka nakaka catch-up... what do you think im doing... sa palagay mo i like to be this...? miles away? gago ka pla eh... the only reason why im here is because i am thinking ahead of what will be the best for us.. para maging reality itong seemingly imposible gap na kaylangan natin i conect... AARRRRGGGHHHHH!!!!.... gosh,,,,,, i really need to let my anger go... what do you think guys?... how can i move on?... ive been a slave for 11 damn years.... i am in a relationship for that long that i dont know kung tama pa ba na i keep ko ito or not or either if im doing the right thing or not. d ko lam kung anu na ko.. i dont even know my self.. sa sobrang concentration ko to be devoted and program my damn life for him.. nasiraan na ata ko... di ko na alam kung panu ang life without him kasi he was my first and last. damn!.. im so coward to face reality... alam ko gago ako... i know im taken way forgranted at agrabyado na talaga ako but i just cant seem to face the world without him.. i know what you think,,, that i know i should be strong and leave.. but how?..cge nga?... i was born to be stupid when it comes to this love?.. but who's not? we all are. i just want to know if what Im feeling is still move or not... ok... to give you the simple situation... i am commited as i said before.. im with a relationship from the longest period of time... 11 eleven years... just imagine?... cge nga... oo gago ako... when we were younger,.,, he had GF's other than me.. naging kabit sila... I was still the orig... at least that was what i believed in. we were only together for 3 years.. then i left batanes... i was so young and so much in-love.... i have to admit im a perfectionist when it comes to personal issue.. i wanted everything to be ok... sa sobrang praning ko... di ako nagkaroon ng pag kakataon to entertain other suitors since we parted untill now.. grabeh... pwede na ata ko barilin sa ulo dahil sa sobrang loyal.. he continued having flings... at sabi nya.. he didnt courted nmn daw them.. and they are only friends?... duh?... friends mo face mo?... meron ba friend na ng ttxt in the middle of the night ng i miss you?.... AGGGGHHHHH!!!.... i hate you!... then, the other reason which he told me is because i only come home once a year at matagal na yung 1 week. yun ang mabigat na offense wich im guilty of.. yes... im away...but my heart always stay.... bwisit!... panu ko ba tangalin sa kokote ko ang ulul na yun?... mag bubulag bulagan nanaman ba ako untill forever?... ok ka lang?.. if your a girl?... ok lang ba sau na me ibang kinalolokohan ang BF mo for that simple reason na di naman daw kami nag kikita at nagkakasama while you are all out head-over-heals devoted and loyal to your BASTARD partner?... cge nga?.. i calculate mo nga ang solution sa napaka complicated kong suliranin?... hayzzz..... ang gulo talaga ng life...
hayzzz... basta ayoko pa umuwi at mag isip.. ayoko mapag isa.. mag iisip lang ako... goshh,,,, napaka tanga... buti pa ang iba me mga friends na nakakalabasan ng sama ng loob.. unluckily.. he was my all... so pag ganitong problemado ako.. i could hardly let it out.. its a poison stuck in me forever.. DAMNNNNN!!!!!!!!!! HHHEEEEEELLLLLPPPPP!!!! kaylangan kong bumalik sa katinuan... pa rehab kaya ako....
question is,,, am i willing to feel this pain forever?... EWAN!
hayzzz... basta ayoko pa umuwi at mag isip.. ayoko mapag isa.. mag iisip lang ako... goshh,,,, napaka tanga... buti pa ang iba me mga friends na nakakalabasan ng sama ng loob.. unluckily.. he was my all... so pag ganitong problemado ako.. i could hardly let it out.. its a poison stuck in me forever.. DAMNNNNN!!!!!!!!!! HHHEEEEEELLLLLPPPPP!!!! kaylangan kong bumalik sa katinuan... pa rehab kaya ako....
question is,,, am i willing to feel this pain forever?... EWAN!
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