twilight of my life

Twilight is a story about a vampire (Edward) and a 16 year old human (Bella).
i first heard about this great book one morning when i was listening to my favorite (or should i say the-only) radio show i listen the "goodtimes with mo" at magic 89.9. it made a bit of a big impact that i made me curious to check it out and download it to their fan-made site.

the intensity it had made in my life was way out of control. I was never taken away by a book like that. it made me impotent and paralyzed from reality for almost 4 days. I was hooked as soon as i read the first page. i couldn’t stop. I didn’t pay attention on anything beside the book. i locked myself up in my room for 2 days without even wanting to go out or even taking the book with me when I take a pee. I eat with eat and didn’t sleep 4 more than 2 hrs in 2days. i was a slave for this creation. I was even surprise for what it did to me since i am not a fan of fictional or horror movies. never did i imagine myself falling in love with a vampire character either. but turned out that there are a lot of things this book let me did.

The first book "twilight" was like the ignition of the fire, you will end up craving for more. the second "new moon" made me cried on the first few chapters and almost stopped me from wanting to read more. but towards the end.. it was ok. Third book "eclipse" was fine and towards the end, it excites me. but the last book "breaking dawn" hit me the hardest. i didn’t took my eyes away from it since start. I cried so many times and giggled while everyone was asleep at 3am. it was so overwhelming that it almost took all my energy.

well after reading, it still had its after shock. i talked of nothing but the book to my friends. It also took a lot of time to get back to reality. i even influenced Karey, ate Brenda, and tin-tin to be just like me "a crazy twilight adik". I cannot write a word that explains how great the book was but all i can say is it was worth sacrificing for. it will change your view of the bloodsucking, prostitute, monster and evil vampire. there is no violence in the book (and i adore the author Stephenie Meyer for her work) and it was properly edited.

as of now.. I’m trying to pull the months faster to November because i can’t wait to watch for its movie on the big screen. Me and my friends are already planning to watch out for it and cant even wait for long... I hope to see you there too...

so to all who are curious and adiks... start typing "twilight" on your search browser and get ready to visit the world of immortals.

is that you?

i have this question to ask. and its been bothering me for days. i just woke up from a big realization or should i say, reality.
ok. lets start, as everybody knows.. i love someone I cannot even be with. we had been together for the first 3 years then i left. the communication goes on and everything.. we had our ups and down like the usual stuff and always end up on patching the problem up. there are days when i ask my self why is this happening. is it me that keeps on holding?.. well, my frequency in going back to see him is only once a year. and its been 10 years now... it took that long before i ask this strange question. do i really love him to hold unto him for this long or is it just my ego that’s speaking so that everyone will be amazed when i say that i have a long time relationship and im doing good in keeping it?.. or is it true love that i can endure this long because his my destiny or is it just me being afraid to let go?

I have so many questions in mind that i myself cannot answer so please do help. i wonder if the reason is that until now, i cannot let go of my past and im living in time capsule. i worried about everything. I think this is the reality i have to face now. I was left behind.. there are things i expect from him that he doesn’t do. I really hate my self for this, am i right about this point?.. I am not dumb about not knowing that people do change as time goes by but my realization about him being the man i use to know cease in no point of view. i see him as i boy i met 10 years back no more no less. well if you agree with me as a result of my seeing him once a year, then im really having a lot of trouble to think about this situation.. I also worry about things that I should not wimp about. If I were you?.. would you keep it that long?.. I also ask, why is He holding on? is it true (gosh, now Im doubting) or he has the same scenario as me not yet awake of the truth...

gosh... i really need i clear thinking about this.. I am in no right mind to think about my self but i have no one to ask that’s why i ask you... please comment.. thanks!

minsan sa tahimik na buhay ni lyra

basta... i feel sick.. i feel bad... i dont want to go home.. gusto ko magbabad sa trabaho until mawalan ako ng pakiramdam. ayoko umuwi at mag isa nnman.. ayoko mag isip kung pano mo ko ginago. ayoko! Ayoko!! AYOKO!!!!.... sayang anf time ko para isipin ka... gosh.. gusto ko naging manhid... bwsit!... inis ako.. grabeh... im so ENGOT... panu mo ko nagagawang tanga?... i know what you're doing pro i choose to be blind on my own way.... AGGGGHHHHHH!!... so pakshet!!... panu?... panu nga? panu kita tatanggalin sa gunita ko... ayo na kita,,, sawa na ko sa kaka intindi ko sau.. tao din ako.. i have my own life.. i want to live my own.. d nalang palaging nag aadjust para sau. tangna nmn... ang sama talaga ng pakiramdam ko... i want to let it out.. sabi mo di tau bagay kasi masyado matayog ang gusto ko marating at di ka nakaka catch-up... what do you think im doing... sa palagay mo i like to be this...? miles away? gago ka pla eh... the only reason why im here is because i am thinking ahead of what will be the best for us.. para maging reality itong seemingly imposible gap na kaylangan natin i conect... AARRRRGGGHHHHH!!!!.... gosh,,,,,, i really need to let my anger go... what do you think guys?... how can i move on?... ive been a slave for 11 damn years.... i am in a relationship for that long that i dont know kung tama pa ba na i keep ko ito or not or either if im doing the right thing or not. d ko lam kung anu na ko.. i dont even know my self.. sa sobrang concentration ko to be devoted and program my damn life for him.. nasiraan na ata ko... di ko na alam kung panu ang life without him kasi he was my first and last. damn!.. im so coward to face reality... alam ko gago ako... i know im taken way forgranted at agrabyado na talaga ako but i just cant seem to face the world without him.. i know what you think,,, that i know i should be strong and leave.. but how?..cge nga?... i was born to be stupid when it comes to this love?.. but who's not? we all are. i just want to know if what Im feeling is still move or not... ok... to give you the simple situation... i am commited as i said before.. im with a relationship from the longest period of time... 11 eleven years... just imagine?... cge nga... oo gago ako... when we were younger,.,, he had GF's other than me.. naging kabit sila... I was still the orig... at least that was what i believed in. we were only together for 3 years.. then i left batanes... i was so young and so much in-love.... i have to admit im a perfectionist when it comes to personal issue.. i wanted everything to be ok... sa sobrang praning ko... di ako nagkaroon ng pag kakataon to entertain other suitors since we parted untill now.. grabeh... pwede na ata ko barilin sa ulo dahil sa sobrang loyal.. he continued having flings... at sabi nya.. he didnt courted nmn daw them.. and they are only friends?... duh?... friends mo face mo?... meron ba friend na ng ttxt in the middle of the night ng i miss you?.... AGGGGHHHHH!!!.... i hate you!... then, the other reason which he told me is because i only come home once a year at matagal na yung 1 week. yun ang mabigat na offense wich im guilty of.. yes... im away...but my heart always stay.... bwisit!... panu ko ba tangalin sa kokote ko ang ulul na yun?... mag bubulag bulagan nanaman ba ako untill forever?... ok ka lang?.. if your a girl?... ok lang ba sau na me ibang kinalolokohan ang BF mo for that simple reason na di naman daw kami nag kikita at nagkakasama while you are all out head-over-heals devoted and loyal to your BASTARD partner?... cge nga?.. i calculate mo nga ang solution sa napaka complicated kong suliranin?... hayzzz..... ang gulo talaga ng life...

hayzzz... basta ayoko pa umuwi at mag isip.. ayoko mapag isa.. mag iisip lang ako... goshh,,,, napaka tanga... buti pa ang iba me mga friends na nakakalabasan ng sama ng loob.. unluckily.. he was my all... so pag ganitong problemado ako.. i could hardly let it out.. its a poison stuck in me forever.. DAMNNNNN!!!!!!!!!! HHHEEEEEELLLLLPPPPP!!!! kaylangan kong bumalik sa katinuan... pa rehab kaya ako....
question is,,, am i willing to feel this pain forever?... EWAN!

Gratitude - Hindi po ito graduation speech…

You read it right. This is not a graduation speech nor my last will. Hehehe!

I just celebrated my 24th birthday and I felt like I have an obligation to thank everyone. Although nothing happened extra-ordinary, I still insist on talking here. Im so sorry if it has to be done this way for most of the people I love are not around to tap their back at this moment.

Gosh…. I’ve been spending to much time on how to thank you guys... but after five tries… I ended with this. It seems I have difficulties in saying thank you personally but I know I have to do it either way.

My family is my life. They will always be in my heart until my last birthday.

To my cousin Tin who treats me like her personal clown, pare mahal ang bayad sa ospital ngaun, baka maloka ka.
To JM & Rodel – ayusin nyo lyf nyo ha. Pakabait lagi.

To my officemates – thank you for understanding me and being my friend through hard and good times.
Ms. Mavic – salamat sa isa na namang taon ng pagtitimpi sa mga kapalpakan ko.
Prens – although we didn’t spent longer time to know each other, I feel like you’re already here in my heart for so long. Naks! (kinopya ko lang yung english na yun) hehehe.
Karey, Ms. Jong, Ate Brenda, Ate Rocky, Ms. Vangie, Rose, Chery, Dada, Ate Nancy, Jera, Jay, Sheryl, IO, Jhona at sa lahat nang makukulit at me topak na kasama ko sa trabaho, salamat sa pag impluwensya nyo sakin para maging mas makulit at mabait na bata.

To my batch mates here kc, jan, joi, den, harvey, girlie and the others, sorry kung naglaho ako. Next time nalang ako taya pag mayaman na ko. Hehehe!

My friends back home – I miss you all and thanks for remembering me.
Olive – no one can replace you to be my bestfriend forever.
Sa batch 01 – tama na inom. Ayusin na natin an gating life. mukhang kaylangan na natin umamin na matatanda na tau.

And to all the people whom I shared my life with, I’m glad our paths cross. People may come and go. Some stay and some move on but I treasure every minute of it without any regret.

I’m thankful for the 24 years that God gave me. For the trials I had encountered. I realize that I wont be this strong without them. If ask for my wish, I wont desire for anything else but the joy and happiness of my love ones. You are my life and I am you. They say love is not selfish and so am I. I love you more than my own.

Hayz…. Nakz… nawindang ako sa haba ng drama at kaseryosohan nito. Its so not me. Gosh..... kalurki,..kulot na tuloy bangs ko.. pwede naman sabihin in one word eh, SALAMAT!.
Tuloy ang ligaya. Salamat nlng at buhay pa ko para mag hasik ng kabaliwan. Bwahaha!

dont laugh at me

I'm a little girl with glasses, the one they call the geek



A little girl who never smiles, 'cause I've got big crooked teeth

And I know how it feels. To cry myself to sleep






I'm that kid on every playground who's always chosen last

A striving loner tryin' to overcome my past



You don't have to be my friend but is it too much to ask?

















Don't laugh at me, don't call me names



Don't get your pleasure from my pain



In God's eyes we're all the same




Someday we'll all have perfect wings





I'm the cripple on the corner you've passed me on the street


And I wouldn't be out here beggin' if I had enough to eat


And don't think I don't notice that our eyes never meet




I lost my heart and life when someone cross that yellow line




That same day I lost my mind.

And right now I'm down to holdin' this little cardboard sign...

DON'T LAUGH AT ME!

I'm fat, I'm thin, I'm short, I'm tall I'm deaf, I'm blind, hey, aren't we all?

wild card cowboys

Sunday, June 22, 2008. The rain was pouring hard and the wind is blowing hard outside. Me and my cousin Thine woke up past 12 after sleeping at 2 a.m. there’s nothing much to do since we cant get out of the house and the electricity is was also not available. i was bored. I felt like blank. Cant do anything fruitful this day. Then, I remembered what me and my family use to do during typhoons in our province. Yes…. I finally got something to do and be excited about. As the oldest among the housemates, I called for a general assembly in my room and we’ve prepared a comfy mattress for us to sit in. we went through the rain and grab light snack on the convenient store near us. Then the tournament begins.

The four characters are me (Lyra Gabilo Faeldon), my cousins (Jomar Quizagan Gabilo, Kristine Gabilo Adami, and Rodel Gabilo Come). The rule was simple. Who ever lose the game of poker will be the one to sort the cards and got the opportunity to be drawn on the face. It was a tough game. Considering that Tine just learn the game at that very moment. After 4 hours of bursting to laughter and trying to cheat on my playmates. We ended up all looking like worst than Indian cowboys.

The ranking are as follows:

Valedictorian: Kristine May Gabilo Adami: a.k.a. (NOKIA)

Salutatorian: Rodel Josef Gabilo Come: a.k.a. (Honda/Nachos)

First Honorable Mention: Lyra Gabilo Faeldon: a.k.a. (Spiderman)


Honorable Mention: Jomar Quizagan Gabilo: a.k.a. (Chubby kiss)

The next time a typhoon hit your place and you got bored… try doing this… its really fun..

Any comment or suggestions?.. Write me.. tnx!

the book of my life

my cousin kristine once told me that only good girls have diaries and bad bad one's dont have time..

i stand to oppose because sad to say, i have one and i ain't a GOOD girl. infact, i belong to the almost worst one. i dont know since when specificaly ive started but i remember seeing my moms journal when i was just a kid inspired me to do one.

at first, it was just a recycled old notebooks that i used in school where i write. and it was not even consistent. i was just in grade school then, i only write when i hated someone or was happy, and sometimes when there are special occasions in my life that need not to be forgoten...

i wish i could post a picture of my oldest diary but they are all kept in my room at batanes. i remember some lines that i wrote at age 9. "i just made the biggest mortal sin ever in my entire life, i stoned my neighbors chicken to death.". . hahahaha!... that line really made my laugh when i read it after more than 14 years. its really fun to go back and scan the pages back to my past life. i realize many things, like how stupid i use to be. (as if i am not now) hahaha! the friends i met and the places ive been. so with the mixed emotions that i felt.. of course it was not always fun but really... it helps a lot to realize why i should not give up on the trials of life i am facing now.

as the years goes.. it became a part of my everyday life. my highschool journals are among the most colorfull ones while my college are very exciting since it was the time for me to start standing on mu own. i finally got my full independence when i graduated and have a job. my journal became more serius and when you scan through the pages, you can see so much solitude emotions and longging. i have kept the other side of me in my book and i have no intension to share it w/ any one. like i said, i am not a GOOD girl so the cops might come and cuff me if my book will be read by anyone. it is exlusivey for me.

i have posted the image of my 2008 diary so you will have an idea on how it looks. its almost similar to a scrapbook because i have kept some memorable in it, eg. candy wrappers, tickets, reciepts, ect.

i have am not giving you the idea to stole mine, (for God's sake please dont). but i am encouraging you to do so. isnt it good to go back and read all the things that you have done as grow old?.. i like the idea of passing by this crazy world and leaving my writtings and life alive.. or just thinking about sharing what you have done with your kids and grandchildren someday. (just incase you will not have any trouble about forgeting) and it will be in details..

when i read the movie THE NOTEBOOK, i was really inspired.. i can feel my self on their position and thats what i want to end my life with. it is worth the effort.

my friends are amaze why i remember certain days that marked my life and i blame my journal for it. i tell you, at first it was hard... no, it was never easy. because untill now i still have the trouble of consistently updating it.. i dont know if it will last long now that the net is popping up fast and manual writting may extinct.. but i keep my stand still. like i said, my journal became a part of me and it contains so many things that no one has seen of me before or will never be seen.

its really hard because i admit up to now my grammar sucks and my spelling is the worst ever... but writing is my life, my passion, and my depression.

you can start by writting small notes of emotions and keeping it aside, not necessarily everyday but just try... its really fun to remember the past...

as for now, ill let my pen down and started punching the keyboad for this journal. hey.. let me know if you want to exchange ideas w/ me. k...?

get inspired....